Pre-word: About a state of mind, where mind has attained
partial clarity into the nature of mind-stuff.
When the mind-consciousness sees itself and the very functioning of its constituents the
significance of thought becomes clear. This clarity of mind-stuff brings about a physical
change in perception. This insight and change can present itself in glimpses. It is a good and
bad state of mind. “Good” because it is truly unconditional and “bad” because it is in partial,
so, mind is still oscillating. On one hand there is a strong perception that there is life energy in
the form of awareness existing deeper than the thought and other hand physics of life is still
under the influence of old mind-stuff. Its like seeing things in flashes of light. The mind and
its mechanical faculties functions like a dark house, where lights (insight) flash off and on. In
light you see things and in dark you work through the memory of things seen in light. So, it
creates a mental stress due to involvement of psychological force. You become increasingly
aware that this house is neither “me” nor “mine” and never belonged to my “self.” In these
occasions you see this reality through cracks of chain of thoughts, feelings and
imaginations.Glimpses are not enough, break this house
Now, addiction of this clarity motivates you to put effort in widening up these gaps and cracks
to allow the insight to expand. This will allow one to see beyond the mechanical exchange of
energy between waking, sleeping and dreaming state and its accumulated knowledge. It is a
significant decision point in life to move the insight. This also requires breaking the house of
trust on mechanical faculties. Its no longer my memory, Its just a memory. Its no longer my
thought, its just a thought. Its no longer my hunger, it’s a hunger. It’s like breaking the
traditional house, owned by heritage Accumulated by past dead thoughts and stand in light.
This is true beginning of meditative state of mind. There is nothing which this being-ness can
get from accumulation in life. The whole effort is to let go, which was never yours to begin
with. This must be felt and not thought. Holding and loosening anything by force is painful;
but let it ripen through insight and let it go. Do not run in the rooms of knowledge, all rooms
are made up of walls. Break the walls and you will find rooms will vanish away automatically.
Know that: Glimpses are not enough, break this house.